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I HATE fucking liars. [May. 5th, 2005|12:11 am]
Gazing through the shadows of a torn soul.
[Current Mood |pissed offpissed off]

Is it too good to be true? This shit is just too easy. There's gotta be a catch.....I guess we will find out.
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I never thought I'd want to feel this way again. [May. 3rd, 2005|12:08 am]
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[Current Mood |lovedloved]
[Current Music |Aquariums running.]

Im crazy in love. =)

Everything is going excellent right now. Work is stress/drama free (for the moment), My boyfriend is the BEST, my dog just had puppies on Friday...6 beautiful cattle dogs, 3 boys 3 girls, Star is such a great mom.

Rob has been bringing Aaliyah to my horse shows, and people keep asking me if shes mine. Haha, my own mother says she looks like she could be my kid. I love her so much, when Im around her, she really makes me want to have a kid of my own. =) Shes so smart too! Shes really falling in love with the horseys =)

I am satisfied with my life at this very moment and the way things are going. I filed for bankruptcy finally! I am taking a week of paid vacation next week, Friday Rob and I are going to 6 flags, saturday I have a horse show, the weekend after that we are going to VEGAS!!! I am super excited about that! I love Vegas. YAY!

Oh yeah there is a dead snake in my front yard. Ew.

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LaFawnduh [Mar. 15th, 2005|10:53 pm]
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You are LaFawnduh. Why are you so sweaty?

Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you?
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(no subject) [Mar. 7th, 2005|09:46 pm]
Gazing through the shadows of a torn soul.
[Current Mood |boredbored]
[Current Music |One year, six months - Yellowcard]

Things I did today....

I woke up next to Rob <3
I slept in.
I washed my car.
I spent most of the day with Rob.
I got my nails done.
I hung out with Brandon.
I had my starbucks fix.

Now I am chillin at home, waiting for Rob to get out of school. I miss him. I should be getting my saddle any day now, for real this time. My guess is by Friday. I hope. I guess my grandmas husband Burl is in the hospital right now, he had surgery on his stomach or something, I havnt heard the details just yet. I hope hes alright. I think my mom will be going up there soon. I guess that means I stay here to babysit my sister, so she doesnt get stupid drunk again. haha. retard. Saturday I will be playing airsoft with Rob and Mark. Im a little nervous. I just dont wanna get shot in the head or anything haha, I have NO idea what is in store for me on Saturday. Im really excited about it though. =) Thursday is my mom's birthday, I have NO idea what to get her. Maybe I will get her the Dooney and Bourke watch that matches her purse, only if I could find the damn thing. She got my sister and I both D&B purses for our easter present. Aww yeah. I love my mom. <3 I hav'nt gone shopping in a while. I am cutting back so I can save some more money. I want to have enough money saved to pay at least 6 months of car payments. Just in case anything ever happens. I dont want anything happening to my car. Lets just see what I can save in a six months time period. Im gonna go find a survey thingy to do...Im out.

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I wish I had a parachute, because Im falling fast for you. [Mar. 2nd, 2005|11:40 pm]
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[Current Mood |lovedloved]
[Current Music |Passage - Poem to the hospital]

For once the drama at work is at a low. Wow. Ever since Paul met his new girlfriend, he hasnt had anything to say about me. AWESOME. About mother fuckin' time.

Ive been seeing a LOT of Rob lately. I really like him a lot. In fact I am completely in love with him. I would seriously marry this guy. Whoa. Never thought I would be saying that. Ever since the first time I hung out with him we have just clicked. He makes me sooo happy. And his daughter....I just love her too. I have never been one to enjoy being around a younger kid, but I love her to death. Shes the cutest little girl. I love just watching her play and run around. She makes me want to have a kid of my own someday. I am just very happy at this point in my life, and I dont want it to end.

On another note, my saddle never came, so I called again today and the lady told me it was still sitting there because the black suede thats on the seat, bleeds bad. Like it will stain your pants black. They gave me the option of either taking the saddle and they would refund me $100, or I could have another saddle made and choose a different color seat and wait another two months. I chose to just take it. Fuck it if I have to wear black pants everytime I ride in it, so be it. Ive waited long enough.

Works been boring lately. I havnt worked with Brandon in what seems like forever, I am having Brandon withdrawls. I love that guy. Hes one of my best guy friends, Him and Mike. I talk to them about everything.

Tomorrow night I am leaving work a little early to go see Israel spin at some hookah bar in riverside, that should be fun. I havnt seen him spin yet. Im gonna end this and go to bed....Goodnight.

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"The humans dont really come out much in the rain" [Feb. 19th, 2005|12:49 am]
Gazing through the shadows of a torn soul.
[Current Mood |tiredtired]
[Current Music |Ludacris.]

I actually got some stuff accomplished today. I got up early and met with Paul so he could drop off some money, I went to the corona library to get some tax forms, but they were closed, so I went to the post office in Corona and picked em up...went home and did my taxes. I just need to send them out tomorrow. I also called on my saddle, it was shipped out today and I should get it by the beginning of next week. Awesome. I called to make an appointment to get my Lojack installed, Its on for tuesday.

I hung out with Rob a little bit tonight =) Always good stuff.

Work was good. I played with a millapede today. Creepy but cool. It almost went down my shirt and I freaked out haha. Some wierdo came in today and was saying something about it being slow, and then said "The humans dont really come out much in the rain" Oohhhh kaaayyyy. I was supposed to go to Sevillas toniight for Ariana's friends 21st B-day, but I dont think jackie wanted to go, besides I really wanted to hang out with Rob tonight. Maybe next wednesday or friday.

Sunday I might take my little sister to go see the band Hawthorne Heights. I really like them, and they are playing with Hopesfall. So yeah, that should be fun, I havnt been to a show in a few years. Damn it really has been a loooong time. The last show I went to I think was when I went with Travis and Adam out to some shit way the fuck out somewhere, I slammed a bottle of Vodka on the way there and got drunker than shit, I dont really remember too much of that night. Blah. I remember Travis was driving my car though hahaha. Good times. <3

Im off to bed, goondight.

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Lazy and Convenient is the mother of invention. [Feb. 8th, 2005|06:42 pm]
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[Current Mood |happyhappy]
[Current Music |Anticon Sampler.]

I get to stay at my job. Good news. There has been way too much drama in my life lately. But compared to Rob, mine isnt shit.

I am happy with my love life right now. Valentines day is coming soon, ugh.

I am going to try to get a new car this week. A 05 Volkswagon Jetta GLI. 6 speed turbo mmmmmmmm. I might try to go tomorrow, depending on when we have to pick up my sister from the airport. Its been kinda boring around the house without her here. I miss her. I am really happy with my relationship with my little sister now, I am really glad we get along and talk about stuff. I love her.

I havnt been out in a while. Jacklyn and I went bowling last Friday night. That was fun, we got hit on by some dorky guys, and got to bowl with some pretty cool ones. I think I am finally over my sickness. THANK JEBUS! Ugh I have to get up early again tomorrow to open. I actually like to open, although I dont like getting up early haha the day seems to go by faster. I need to go get my nails done, Im missing one. I think im gonna put my pictures up in my frame thing, im on a search for some tape....peace.

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You have a snake, I have a mealworm. [Jan. 23rd, 2005|06:02 pm]
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[Current Mood |sicksick]
[Current Music |Silence.]

Its been about a month since Ive last updated this. A LOT has happened. Paul and I are no longer together, and its totally for the best.

The last couple weeks a bunch of us from work have been going out, Wednesday night we went to club Sevillas, I got drunk as fuck and danced my ass off, Friday night we went to Sevillas again, same thing, I got drunk as fuck and danced my ass off. Last night we went over to Jacklyns house for a little kickback and played Pictionary, we had fun. Poofda even showed up for a bit. We are supposed to go play pool tonight, but Ive been sick the last couple of days so I dont know if im gonna go or not, I probably will haha. Good times <3

I should be getting my saddle any day now, Im getting a bit impatient. I need to go pick up some nyquill. My voice is just about gone, and this cough will not go away no matter how many cough drops I eat. Im looking into buying a new dirtbike, I really want a yamaha banshee, like the one Cesar used to have. They are $5800 right now. Im seriously thinking about it. My ferrets are getting big now, especially Luman! Cowboy is a wee little fella haha. I should go now, I need to work on painting my bedroom still. I have only one more wall to go pXo suckas.....

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Merry Christmas! [Dec. 26th, 2004|12:04 am]
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[Current Mood |sleepysleepy]
[Current Music |My Chemical Romance]

My christmas was EXCELLENT. I had the BEST morning ever.

Everyone was happy with the gifts they got, my mom loved the Doney and Bourke purse that I got her, and my sister was way excited about her stereo. I just basically spent the day at home, opened presents, I took a little nap, then had dinner and went over to Sandy's house for a while and hung out there. Her sister and her boyfriend were there, hes an actor and is in a bunch of movies I guess he was really nice. Then from there we went over to Nash and Tammy's and hung out for a bit, I came home early because I have to work early.

I got a bunch of cool stuff, a new Bob Marshall saddle, Chanel Chance perfume, a pink snowboarding jacket, a pink and wool jacket, a pink hooded sweatshirt, a pink corderoy jacket, some MAC makup, some new plugs with pink stars on them, a pink purse that says "fuck" all over it, a pink crate, and a pink three drawer organizer, a book on Ferrets and one on Tropical fish, and a USB cable for my printer haha since I stole my moms. =)

I gotta cut this short, Im off to bed. Goodnight.

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Foof. [Dec. 19th, 2004|10:27 pm]
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[Current Mood |happyhappy]
[Current Music |Silence.]

Less than a week till christams. Yay!!!

Paul no longer lives here, its kinda nice. One big plus is I get my bed all to myself. I am enjoying this.

We got another chihuahua tonight. A friend of my moms brought her over. I guess her mother is older and sometimes forgets to take care of her so they brought her to us to find a good home for her. My mom is talking like she wants to keep her. Shes very sweet, her name is Honey. She is the light tan color like the taco bell dog, shes very small too. She fits right in with everyone else. She even growled at Paul hehe.

I think we are going to Iowa in the beginning of January. My great grandma is turning 95. That should be fun. Maybe it will snow! Im gonna cut this short im off to bed.

I am a happy girl. Still smiling =)
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